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I hate waiting.

I love her, no matter how hard I try not to, no matter how much I hate her, how angry I get.

She loves me. It's so obvious, she's said it, we've been on top of the world before. I hate that I don't see that feeling returning, I hate that she's afraid of being hurt (when she should know by now how I feel!), I hate how emotionlessly uncomfortable this feels, I hate hating, I hate hating hatred, I hate...

Michelle...fuck I hate how ordinary and mundane and stereotyped our situation is, how extraordinary it feels...

I hate waiting. Oct 6 12:20 PM MST