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i hate how he died, i hate that he left. i hate that he suffered, i hate that he caused his own suffering, i hate that he tried to escape it all and be free, i hate how that's both the right and hardest thing to do. i hate that hes dead. i hate that i can never see or talk to him again. i hate that i had to take his ashes home on the plane. i hate that he was so alone. i hate that he didnt even make it a year even though he was the strongest person i knew. i hate how i dont know if he knew i loved him or not. i hate that my brothers dead but most of all i miss him Oct 6 12:49 PM MST